Everything became shit

Regret is something I've dealt lately. But. i can't change the past. I immediately started thinking everything i wished and i had done. Maybe it's a waste of energy to spend time regretting what i did and i didn't do. I tried to be honest with my self but i know, it's hard to do. I can't make sure that i can spend my time with those people around me now. Embarrassed! I've asked to my self over and over again, WHY WHY WHY! But i can't answer! Damn! It was a tricky and tremendous part of life. You know what I feel? LOST, HURT, everything became unpredictable. Should i blame myself for everything that happened days ago? Should i become a real foolish? Or should i change my mindset?

Mistake that i've done make me feel so awkward to do anything. Ever loved you is a damn thing i had done. A thing which made me cry along day and u know what? 

U WERE A SHIT MAN I'VE KNOWN!

FOOL, FREAK, JERK!

U can't discover all mistakes that u had done. U can't UNDO! U can't apologize me. U ARE NOT WORTH TO ACCEPT IT ALL!

So, how about DESPERATELY IN LOVE?? It's fucking bullshit. The are not truly love.